November 23, 2012

Of happiness and dreams

Just a few minutes ago, I was chatting with him and he told me how sick and tired he is of his job and how he wants to just quit. When asked what would he be doing instead, he told me that he wanted to take pictures all around the world. 

Then my eyes started getting teary.

What a selfish jerk a person has to be, to rob someone of their livelong dream for his own desire that didn't even exist until recent years. 

Despite telling me several times that he made such a huge decision/sacrifice ONLY because he believed in me (and my track record), I still feel that I'm not worthy of it. There's probably a reason why I can't secure a scholarship. Maybe my uncle's right, maybe this isn't worth it.

I had no idea he could afford to send me overseas. I am still not quite sure how. (Though I am sure no bank loans are involved.)

So I told him to keep himself healthy until I could afford to send him on vacations. 

If I truly want to be fulfil that promise in the shortest amount of time possible, then the right thing to do is to get a job here in the UK and forget the idea of heading home after graduating. Of course, it depends on how good am I (or how good I will be), but that isn't the main issue here. 

He will always remind me to do whatever that makes me happy ... well, maybe putting aside my desire to go home in order to make him feel happy will make me feel happy.

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