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最近比较烦。

*叹*

好烦啊。也不知道在烦些什么。只不过是一名学生,有什么好烦的呢?又不需要为事业打拼,赚钱养家,付电费、水费,到菜市买菜,煮给家人吃,洗衣,烫衣。。。

可能在不久的将来,当我已是成年人,回头一望,会嘲笑自己,当初竟然为了那么一点儿芝麻绿豆的小事而苦恼。

学生的责任已不是像我父母那一代一样,把书读好就行了。现今,我们还得照顾好自己的形象,把一大堆责任披在肩膀上,为老师们服务,为学校争光。学校成为了第二个家,也不是我所想要的。虽然如此,我也不是完完全全地埋怨校方。为学校服务,是一件很开心的事。但是,有时候,想喘一口气时,却被逃不掉的责任所捆绑着,真是受不了。

除了平常的功课以外,身为某某学会的主席还得为学会到处奔波,搞不好还要给顾问老师念,说自己不负责任,不尽责,不适合做领导人。就这样,受到一次有一次的人生攻击,对自己的信心也慢慢的被剥削了。除了某某学会的主席以外,还得面对巡察员的责任。常常也为了胜任这些有的没的任务,牺牲了自己的午餐,牺牲了休闲时间,去做自己不想做的事。

那只不过是一小部分而已。

在课业上,还有做不完的功课,集锦簿,与课业有关的比赛,还有一大堆对自己没帮助的东西。似乎在学校呆了整天还不够,回到家还得忙功课,忙到三更半夜。去哪儿找来这么多精力啊?

最可笑的是被选为模范生的候选人还得再次受到人生攻击。自己都已经够自卑了,常常怀疑自己的能力,现在还要受到如此的耻辱,似乎在再次肯定自己的缺点。早知道会这样,不如不要选我好了。浪费精神,浪费时间。

说到浪费时间。。。
最受不了那些不把事情搞清楚,就吩咐着、吩咐那,还有种叫我快点把事情做好。才过了两天,就向我追要成品,又不是拖了很久的事。没与上司讲好,也没给我清楚的指示,也不跟我说一声自己不是真正的负责人,到头来还要我重新做过。不知道他怎么搞的,没一丝对学生们应有的尊重。想给面子也难。

还有一些,讲一套、做一套的,像高利贷一样,说是穷人的救星,其实是在骗走别人辛辛苦苦赚来的钱。不知怎么搞的,常常用恐吓的语气来威胁我们这些手无寸铁的学生们。最糟糕的是还利用‘分数’来欺骗我们。我也不是贪着区区几个数字,只是怕这恶势力会在背后搞什么鬼。像高利贷一样,黑社会的背景,不好惹。

中学生涯很快就要过去了。真不想带着这些回忆到人生的下一个阶段。

哇,这样乱写一篇就超过八百个字了。同时也发现自己的华文好不到哪里去。
-杨添贤

Pokemon and American Idol!

Aww, Andrew's out.
Wish he would stay longer, but I guess his time is up. :(
Oh well, Lee better win this. LOL

POKEMON!
FINISHED POKEMON YELLOW.
FINISHED POKEMON CRYSTAL TODAY,
IN 2 FREAKING DAYS!
WITH 1 FREAKING MAIN POKEMON!
GO TYPHLOSION!

Took it slower for Pokemon Yellow,
Trained my Pikachu, Charizard, Blastoise, Venusaur, Dragonite and Mew equally.

Next up, Emerald?
-Kritz

Reminder.

  1. Surat pelantikan. [DONE!]
  2. Tag pengawas percubaan. [DONE!]
  3. Set of 1119 objective questions. [DONE!]
  4. Physics exercise. [DONE!]
  5. Moral Powerpoint - Keamanan dan keharmonian.
  6. Touch up powerpoint for Bahasa Cina. (been saying that since forever)
  7. Something about Kelab Memanah? Oh yes, passing the carta organisasi to some kid ...
  8. Prepare for Sejarah tuition exam. (doubt I'll actually do that ...) [OVER!]
  9. Prepare for Chemistry tuition exam. [OVER!]
  10. Prepare for Physics tuition exam. [OVER!]
  11. English Literature homework, 'crimes' of Sheila and Gerald. [DONE!]
  12. BC - completely lost. Loads of essays to copy and workbook exercises to finish up.
  13. Some PBSM demo thing next week.
  14. Calligraphy competition next week? Have to inform people ... [OVER!]
  15. Sivik folio. Not that I need to do much :P
  16. NIE. But that can wait :O
  17. Prepare for BM oral test. D:
  18. Sejarah BBM conpetition D:
  19. 5 Komsas questions!
  20. More Chemistry practicals to copy.
  21. Complete Chemistry exercise book. (one of the things that never seems to be done)
  22. Complete Sejarah exercise book. (same case with Chemistry)
  23. Complete Physics practical book. (same case with Chemistry and Sejarah)


Last (actually I think I might have left out some) but not least,



MID

TERMS

WOOT


-Kritz

Life, lives.

*click, scroll, click, scroll ... *

Reading these entries -- well, not exactly reading, just glancing through, allowing words to grab attention of my vision, processing paragraphs of words like a robot, except that I don't actually analyze it like a robot. *coughrubbishcough*

It's hard to comprehend how our lives were once revolving around each other, like the earth and the moon, like a magician with his ring trick. And exactly like the magician's ring trick, they cease to exist as one entity with a sleight of hand, entirely separate beings, like distant parallel lines, without the fate of meeting each other, never intersecting.

Watched Kelly Clarkson's music video this afternoon, 'Behind These Hazel Eyes'. Immediately, my memories in primary school with my best primary school friend came back to me. It's been a long time since primary school memories were so vivid.

To think that soon, my life's bond with my secondary schoolmates will soon be miraculously disconnected from each other, it makes me emo scares me. Sure, we'll meet up, chat online, stuff like that, but it would never, ever, be the same again.

Suddenly, it doesn't feel safe to be complacent.

The engravings that they left on my life seem to gradually fade away, as life moves on, coarsened by time and reality. Not noticeable, but if I look closely, it's there, it will always be there.

Friendship reminds me of the effective collisions of particles. If they knock head-on, overcoming activation energy and whatnot, a reaction occurs. Chemistry. Not that sort of chemistry. =.=
While other encounters, will only result in disoriented collisions, not evoking a reaction, probably resulting as mere acquaintances.

Oh, the wonders of life. Simple, yet complicated.

What lies beyond?
-Kritz

short update ...

Got myself involved in the school's debate team.
Great.

Debate on Friday was kinda fun,
But too bad it was really counted as one.

Totally inexperienced in debating,
But have to join a competition near the end of the month.

Went back to school on Saturday to have some crash course with 2 experienced ... speakers.
Members of the Toastmasters' Club,
Mr. Christie and Mr. Stevens.
They are planning to start up some interact club in my school,
I think.
Not like it would be a big impact on me,
Since it's my last year :(

Oh wait, :)

Then immediately after that I had driving lessons.
Gosh, somehow I know I'm not exactly a born-talent at driving,
And somehow that's hindering me ...
I don't know,
It's encouraging me to take things slower.
Learned parking and 3-point-turn.
Right arm sunburned D:

Then there was Sports Day on Sunday,
On Easter Sunday.

Been absent from church for God-knows-how-long (pun? not exactly using God's name in vain so ...)
When I go back,
I'll be bombarded with "long-time-no-see's".
Save me :(

Anyway,
Sports Day!
Tiring,
Sunburned, AGAIN.
Didn't do as much as other PBSM-ers did,
But not exactly did nothing.
Congrats to everyone who took part,
Congrats to Kian Siong who was crowned the athlete of the year :D
Congrats to Eirban who was the president of the winning house, Red (a.k.a. Cougar, LOL) :D
Congrats to the PBSM-ers for not screwing up :D

Holidays on Monday!
Which is today!
Suffering from sunburn D:
Played ping pong :D
-Kritz

And that bitch did her thang once again, GET A LIFE DAMMIT.