April 10, 2015

Next steps

It just occurred to me how stark the difference was between a recent interview for a graduate job position and the interview I had last year for my summer internship.

For my previous internship, the three panelists seemed eager to talk to me. It was a great experience for me too because I genuinely cared about what the internship entailed (well, a little) and was able to voice my thoughts on what could be done for the project. I left that interview feeling positive and thought of how sad I would be if I wasn't offered that internship.

For the graduate job position, it wasn't anywhere near. There wasn't much of a connection. I felt as if I wasn't really suited for them and they probably felt the same about me too. I would probably get over the likely rejection pretty quick, or at least I hope I would.

I wonder what would I be doing a few months from now. Don't think my near future has ever had this much uncertainty. For the past 20 years or so, it was pretty much just moving from one stage of education to another. This really is the end of an era. It's exciting and daunting at the same time. I'm not worried, or at least not yet, but it's like the next chapter of a book that I can't wait to start. So much so, I just feel like rushing through the end of this one.

Everyone's ahead of the game, having their post-graduation plans all figured out. Well, good for them. I just want some time to do some soul-searching -- and by that I mean looking into career choices and not sitting on my arse all day -- and hopefully make the right choices.

I guess I've always been an instinctive person, and my instincts are telling me not to rush into things. Wouldn't it be funny if they offered me the job and I took it anyway?


Anonymous said...

At least you're looking for a job already. My brother on the other hand has just finished his internship and said he's gonna take a break till September (his convocation) before looking for a job. -_- Said something about building his portfolio but I think that mostly involves him watching youtube.

With that being said, I took about 3 months after my last class in uni to start my first job cause perfect timing of new year and cny holiday.

But I think there's no rush if you're planning on coming back here to look for a job. Unless you get a offer in UK then great! :D Don't be too hard on yourself. After years in the rat race I'm still not 100% sure I'm running on the right track or not.

Kritz said...

Well, to be fair, they contacted me first, so technically I wasn't looking for a job, haha.

Ideally, I would want to have a 3-month break after my graduation too. Or even better, a one-year break to do some soul-searching ... if I had something in mind.

I just wanna stop being dependant on my parents really. Seems like it's time to relieve them of a huge burden.