I don't feel 16.
I feel like I'm 15.
Do you know the difference between 15 and 16?
It's one friggin' year,
One big leap.
I don't feel it.
Is there suppose to be a change,
A superior feel to it or something?
If yes, where is it?
If no, what's the point?
2 more years and I'll turn legal but I'll probably feel the same.
I feel stuck at the PMR era,
And it seems weird that I'm already studying subjects like additional mathematics.
Everyone seems the same to me,
Or probably not.
I don't know.
I'm officially lost.
How I wish someone would offer guidance,
Telling me what to study for,
What to look out for,
What to be aware off.
Praying someday everything would be clear.
Wishing that I wouldn't waste a whole year like I did in Form 1.
I actually realised my Living Skills (Kemahiran Hidup) was Technical Skills (Kemahiran Teknikal) when I was Form 2.
The only thing I enjoy right now is the endless laughter in class,
Thanks to the people around me,
I really enjoy laughing like a mad man,
Oblivious to the surroundings.
Other than that,
I find it hard to enjoy school.
Being such a procrastinator,
Homework piles up faster than I can possibly imagine.
What's worse is being so absent-minded,
But that isn't too big of a problem since there are friends to help me out.
I'll be a life-less person.
Imagine having tuition for 6 days in a week.
Not only that,
Exams will come soon,
And I do not wish to follow the footsteps of most Form 4s,
Failing for their first exam.