And I went to bathe,
Tears started to roll,
I couldn't help myself.
As the shower showers away my tears,
I try as hard as I could to control myself.
Who was I anyway,
I'm just a kid.
Went back to my mother's home town on Saturday,
I never liked going back,
I rather stay at home,
Even though people there are nice and everything,
I just don't like it.
I'm turning into a cold-blooded animal,
That no one knows.
Waste time in the shop,
Went to house,
Wait for dinner,
Waste more time,
Parents left me alone,
Went to gatherings of their own.
I was left alone.
Cousin brother took me out,
With his VAIO and BMW,
SMS-ed with TJ,
Thank you so much.
Went out with two cousin brothers,
Waited in the shop again.
I was bleeping bored,
I wish I could just go out into the road and let cars hit me.
I don't understand,
Why time must be killed that way.
How I wish some one would turn out to save me,
Maybe my mum or my dad.
My mother came,
But not to the rescue.
She joined in the babbling,
Or quarrel should I say.
Do you still remember me?
They finally noticed my existence.
We were suppose to have lunch on 1pm.
So they all went home,
Get ready and all.
This was when I went I felt like breaking down.
The thought that my mother doesn't seem to care much,
Maybe she does,
But I just don't see it.
It's not that I don't appreciate it,
Or maybe I think too much,
I was really sad at that moment.
On the other hand,
Understands what I feel,
Knows when I'm feeling down,
Never force me to do something I really don't want to.
After that few drops of tears,
Had to wipe the steam of the mirror to see whether I left any stains of crying.
Put on my mask,
And went out.
I hate this.
The thought of people that care leaving any second is heart-shattering.
I guess I have to start being strong,
Getting used to the world with people who don't care and understand.